The reason why I am completely picky with people is because I’m a little afraid of falling in love and expressing all my feelings to anyone. (Are there phobias for those two things?)
I’m afraid of falling in love because I’m afraid of getting my heart “broken.” I’ve never really been rejected because I’ve never really, really liked someone. And the only person I’ve ever really wanted to go out with, I’m going out with them now. I’ve rejected a lot, and I mean a lot of people. Some that were probably even a perfect match for me, but I was always too scared that they wouldn’t understand me or they would “break” my heart because they couldn’t handle how confusing I am. The only reason I am confusing is because I can’t completely open up to people.
I haven’t completely opened up to anyone for my lack of trust. I have trust issues and I also care too much of what people might think of my emotions.
And on top of all that, I’m really shy sometimes. So I suck when it comes to my relationships. But when people need advice with theirs, I’m somehow completely experienced. It’s just common sense anyway.
(This is totally a bunch of confessions in one. Again.)
fear of rejection
